Monday, January 05, 2009

April 24, 2007
Aftermath, Day 3
Eastwood City
10 am

I was cleaning the room today when Rhanie and Kate left early for work when I saw the images on top of the desk by the living room. There's a lot of new pics and seriously, they all makes me remember so many things. I sweep the floor and turn on the computer to listen to some music, and it brought a huge smile on my face when I realized that the last one played on the WMP is none other than Rhanie's song with Hyesung...The Perhaps Love one. <3 I finish cleaning and close my eyes for a while, I'm not workless, but rather free from work at this time of day. My work starts in the evening. Hello call center. I can't be a diplomat at this age, nah-uh, not really. Frankly sometimes I don't know what I want. Haha. I want to be a popstar but I can't sing. ERASE THAT. I wanna be a dancer, but...I dunno. -_-; I don't know what step I should take, or if I'm really ready for whatever things might come when I actually become a dancer. -_-; Weird.

Anyway, this whole thing is making me think. Actually, I'm just thinking other things so I won't be thinking of Andy. Haha.

The picture on the desktop is of Kate and Minwoo last April 17, 2007--when we went out for the night, and they just took pics. Haha. It's so sweet. I swear, I can still hear the music playing that night (ofcourse, I will say and say this again and again for the past 2 years, they should change the songs, Yeah is really overused. T_T;)...*sigh* Nakakabwisit. Edi naalala ko rin sila ng di oras! Rhanie and Hyesung has a pic next to Kate and Minwoo, it's of them recording together, looking cute and singing really seriously. <3 I placed my pic with Andy next to their pics, it's of us lying on the hammock together, looking ridiculously funny doing the peace sign with our faces distorted. I've never felt so beautiful and real at that moment. Haha. I've always erased all pics of me looking stupid, but this one I really kept. <3 I loved that shot. ^^ The other girls will probably go here this week and put up their picture frames too. hehe.

My newest wallpaper is of all of us, sitting outside, by the hammocks. It makes me cry most of the time. I'm an idiot for putting it up as my wallpaper. xD

It's as if a week never really passed by. If only there's no rants in SHCJ.NET and people going nuts about them coming here, and wondering who they were with, and where the pics are, and all the things that come across every fans head. I can't believe that I have the guts to answer to one of the threads (with Shinhwa's pics at the airport going home) saying, "I miss you boys...thanks for sharing..." After I said that I totally went in the bathroom, showered and cried over and over again. Until I received a ring from Andy out of nowhere. He just missed called. And I cried and laughed and the girls thought I was crazy. Well, I am. Haha. An SMS came in and Andy was like, "We missed you too." And bloody hell, they visited SHCJ. xD Hahaha.

Sigh.

I should get ready for work.

I'll see you later.

Angel Lee updated at 9:37 AM